Fuck

I really do love you.
And i've been in love before, but never like this.
For the first time ever, in my entire life,
I feel like we are meant to be together, I know it.
The feeling is so strong, that I can't erase it.
You are my soulmate. I can never let you go, even though I wish I could, because i've ruined so much for you, and i've let you hurt me way to many times. Why do we hurt the ones we love?

Some days I just wish that we never met eachother, because I know both of our lives would be so much easier right now. But then I think of all the memories we have, all the lifechanging things you showed me, and then I feel like the luckiest person in the world, because even though you don't love me and I mean nothing at all to you anymore, I still love you with all my heart and all my life is dedicated to you, and I wouldn't want to miss out on my soulmate, even though he doesn't want me. Anymore..