Kun jeg kan skabe min lykke.

Vi er ikke andet end kød og blod, dig og mig.
Men stemmerne i mit hoved fortæller mig vi er mere end blot det.
Kan jeg stole på det mere? Hvilken vej er min skæbne?
Skal jeg følge det jeg ved, eller det jeg føler og hvad føler jeg overhovedet? Jeg ved det er forsent, det indså jeg mange fortvivlende dage siden. Skal jeg kæmpe eller give op, lade det flyde ud i intetheden? Inden det er forsent og tankerne i mit hoved brænder sig fast og fortærer mig langsomt?
Jeg bliver ved, indtil den dag håbet forlader mig, og hvis den dag aldrig kommer, så ved jeg at man kun selv kan skabe sin lykke, der ved jeg at jeg gjorde det rigtige.

Jeg er lykkelig.

En tung byrde, har forladt mit sind
og nu kan jeg igen leve, jeg suger glæden til mig og lader det flyde igennem mig, som kold vinterluft der fylder mine lunger. Jeg mærker det helt ude i fingerspidserne, og lader det omringe mig. Jeg er lykkelig, det kan ingen tage fra mig. De fortabte øjne hviler på mig, men jeg svæver, ubesværet og fuld af forventning, gennem den kærlighed, jeg ikke vil lade gå bort. Tunge hjerteslag, bliver flere når jeg lader mine fingre glide over din krop. Jeg elsker dig. Jeg er lykkelig, og det kan ingen tage fra mig.

I'll let you know

Seems like everytime, I get the chance
I realise, it's harder than I thought.
I get lost in your eyes, and your beautiful glance
and before I know it i'm caught.

It's my heavy burden, that i'm this weak
My heart just want to let you know,
But my lips are sealed, impossible to speak.

I know you won't believe me, cause you still don't see me
I'm terrified to be let down, I can't let my feelings out.
But I wish I could tell you, I wish you'd understand,
How much I love you, even though you can't.

<3

You tried.

One step at a time, don't rush these things.

Just wake up, and burn your wings.

It's too late now to turn around,

dust yourself off or stay on the ground.

Get yourself together, swallow your pride.

Did you really think, i'd always be by your side?

I'm not doing it anymore, atleast I tried.

But you don't deserve it, you know you lied.

I should've listened to you from the start.

I should've listened to you from the start.

All what you said was true.

I didn't want to believe it, didn't wanna hear it from you.

I realise now that it's never gonna go my way.

It's never gonna work out, it's never gonna be okay.

I should've listened to you from the start, I could've avoided this pain.

It's all gonna be okay

Mistake after mistake, I realise now..

I want to fix it, but I dont know how.

I understand why you think i'm lying,

I really do, but inside i'm dying,

I can't even ask you to forgive me, I can only beg and hope, one day you'll understand.

Summer night.

Alone outside, just walking in the night,
thinking about all the things I never managed to do right,
and the cold summer night, is killing me inside
hopeless in my mind, I let out a sigh.


'Cause I don't know where I'm from and I don't know where I'm going, 
I wish someday I can be free, creator of my own sorrow, waiting for a brighter day tomorrow.
It's all my own fault, can't blame anyone but myself.
I dont know how I'm going to get it, but I know I need help.

Heavy breathing, blood pumping furiously.

Heart racing, eyes searching curiously.

My body is shaking, words can't escape.

Just wanna scream, this physological rape.

I have something for you to show
but my bleeding heart, doesn't want you to know.
A contract of loneliness, signed in my name,
can't even hold my head up anymore, 'cause of shame.
Eternal screaming in my messed up head, 
Being alone with myself, is what I dread.


Along this road, there's no light ahead.
Can't handle this, the pain about to spread.
Alone with my own devouring mind, 
Searching for a happiness i'll never find.

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.

Misty eyes, staring into the deep darkness of lost hope.
A silent sigh disappears into the lonely night,
wishing with all of my heart, that I could elope,
to a place where hope will show me the light.


Why am I doing this, what do I wanna prove?
Maybe it's because I have a broken heart to soothe.
A mistake with no solution,
this is the time for a revolution.


It pains me to be quiet when my heart wants to speak.
I'll be fine one day, but now i'm just too weak.
I only want the best for you, you are my friend,
knowing that, is gonna help my heart mend.


Whatever you might think, I want you to know,
I dont hate you for not loving me anymore, I hate myself 'cause I haven't let you go.
And loving someone is an invitation for them to break your heart,
but I don't wanna see this as an end, but rather as a brand new start.


My broken heart will heal after a while, my goal is to see you and not cry, but smile.

I'm a creep.

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control,
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.

Even my own life comes after you.

When i lie in your arms, nothing else in the world matters
As we lie here, skin to skin, all of my bad memories shatters.
A single touch, a warm embrace
A feeling nothing could replace.
Your soft breathing on my neck, your hand in mine.
Happiness floating through my veins, a feeling I cant define.


Watching you sleep, watching you breathe,
It's times like these where I truely believe,
That our love will shine through any darkness,
That our love will brighten, even the heartless.
Cause I'm saying this, and it's true.
That even my own life, comes after you.
I love you.

Stranded.

Stranded, with nothing to loose.
Time running out, I've got to choose.
Thoughts devouring my mind.
I guess love really does make blind.
Another hopeless love story with a horrible ending.
I'm sorry but I can't keep pretending.

Do you really love me? I need you to swear.
I can't go through this pain again, I need you there.
It might not seem like it but i'm fragile.
I might be hurt but my mind is still agile.
Don't lie to me, I really care.
And to loose you, I something I couldn't bare.

To be loved and accepted?

What makes a human feel accepted and loved? Is it the way their parents raised them, or the way people around them behave? I personally believe that a human can't go through an entire life without feeling accepted and loved,  by atleast someone. You would go mental and desperate for some to like you that it's gonna ruin your entire life. Thats why I can never emphasise how important it is to tell people you love that you do love them, and if its hard for you to say, atleast show them in some other way, it will change their life.

I dont know if you know

But I really hope you do

Time moves on slow

I could spend a life time with you.

Your laughter makes me smile

Your tears makes me cry

I no longer feel so futile

I no longer have to lie.

With you, everything is fine

Yes with you, all the pain is lost in time.

I can look at you and be proud

Im saying this and I vow..

I love you.

I hope that you know this

You're the one that keeps me going

You're the greatest person that exist

Without you even knowing.

Im telling you this to make u realize

That even though everyone criticize

I will always be there to make you understand

That i will always be here, to hold your hand.

With you, everything is fine

Yes with you, all the pain is lost in time.

I can look at you and be proud

Im saying this and I vow..

Ill always be your bestfriend, I love you.

Friendship.

I feel kind of sentimental today, I have no idea why. I'm sitting here thinking how important it is for me to have someone I can always trust, someone who is there as soon as I need them, I can't imagine a world without those people I call my friends. I realise i've never really had many friends, but the few friends I have, I really love and care about. I had a dream last night, that everyone had turned their back on me, I was all alone and I was in great misery, the feeling was horrible and it just made me realise even more that you should not take your friends for granted, you should always make sure they know how you feel, it can make a persons whole day if you just tell them that you care, because what you see on the outside isnt always whats on the inside. I know that if someone came up to be and said to me " I really care about you" I would feel really appreciated, and that's one of the greatest feelings in the world, it really is. Friendship is the most important thing in this world, take good care of it, and everything will be just fine.

Don't point at others.

Today someone I know said this one sentence that really fascinated me. I thought it was such a beautiful sentence so I had to share. "Don't point at others, because when you point at others, three fingers will point on yourself" This really made me think about how important it is to treat other people with respect. When you are good to someone, they will be good to you, as the sentence says think of what you do, because it will come back to you and hit you even harder. I was so fascinated by this sentence, it really made me think about my life and if i treat people the way I wanna be treated?

Misty eyes and shady

Misty eyed and shady,
a mysterious and beautiful lady.
Moving like the wind,
her empty heart filled with sin.


A cold and dark soul,
it is empty, dark as coal.


She's just a slave for her own mind,
she's searching for a rescue, she will never find.
She wants to be okay,
so many world she'll never say.


Alone in her misery,
maybe one day, you will see.

Another school day

Hey, today while i was in school I got a lot of inspiration so i'll be posting some different poems i wrote today, I hope u enjoy.

Love.

We all know the word love. But what does it mean? Is it the butterflies in your stomach when you think about you special someone? Or is it the fact you would die for the person without a thought. How many people even knows what love is? I don't know if im one of the few people in this world who has actually experienced real love. Love to me is much more than just feeling happy when you are with your hearts desire. To me love is something a bit from the edge. A little more extreme than the usual stuff, when we have a teenage crush. The fact that the person means more to you, than your own life. You would do anything for them, without an exception, you would always put them higher than yourself. It's hard to explain with words, if I could lay my feelings out so you could fully understand me I would, but until now the word love can never really be explained, does anyone even know what it is?

I didn't mean to hurt you, I swear.

I'm innocent, I almost whispered.

I knew I couldn't hide what I did.

I didnt know what I was doing, I was just a kid.

I feel the pain, I feel so guilty.

My soul is dark, my soul is filthy.

Please forgive me

There is so many things i'm not proud of

But i'd do everything for love.

I know that for the things i've done, they will never be forgiving.

I have to keep fighting, I have to keep living.

Please dont hate me

The words cut straight through my heart

One more dirty look and it'll be ripped apart.

I didn't mean to do these things, I need you to see me.

I was just a desperate girl, crying for help, i beg tearfully.

Friendship.

 A great friendship always starts with a smile. 
A smile can turn your world up side down, save your day.
And from that moment on you don't have to frown, the pain goes away.

The meaning of life?

What's the meaning of life? A question that people ask themselves everyday.
It can be hard to see what your purpose in life is, and sometimes you give up while trying to figure it out. There is no right or wrong answer to this question, everyone has a diffrent purpose, some bigger than others, but we all have one. There is always a reason for anything, even if you feel worthless. I don't know what my purpose in life is, as I said, it's hard to figure out, but I know that if I can just make one person happy, I can be please with myself..  This may sound cliché and you know what? Maybe it is. I truely believe we all have a purpose in life, we just need to find it, and untill we do.. We should do our best to live our life as we want to and do our best to be the best person we can.. maybe that's the meaning of life?

This is the deepest love that i've ever known.

A pain in my heart, caused by you.
All of your actions, all you do.
They hurt me more than you could ever imagine.
A love like mine, a love with passion.
So tired of being taken for granted, feeling sick and alone.
This is the deepest love that i've ever known.

Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

My damned cries.

I'm not the person I used to be, my damned cries are haunting me.
Blood running cold in my veins,
The knife lying in my hand,
releasing me from all of my pains,
a pain I just can't stand

My disfunctional heart
Crumbling, falling apart
Abandoned by the higher powers,
Crying every moment, off all hours.

I'll paint you a picture, a picture with a twist
I'll paint it with a razor, i'll paint it on my wrist.

It's all left to die.

A lot of promises were broken
A lot of words left unspoken
A few salty tears
An end of their fears
It's all left to die.

A gentle smile
yet so futile
it wont help us overcome,
Everything that we've become.
It's all left to die.

Hand in hand,
Footprints in the sand
The feeling that will elope
The last bit of hope.
It's all left to die.

A young girl.

A young heart
so fragile and pure
It's easily torn apart
So scared and unsure.

A young soul
Its so much worth
With a heart of gold
An angel on earth

A young mind
So easy to abuse
So easy to blind.
With no excuse

A young love
So hard yet so true
Guidance from above
Having no clue

A young boy
and a young girl
So full of joy
In a lonely world

A young cry
A lot of pain
A hurtfull lie
A world full of rain

A young girl
hiding behind her smile
hiding from the world.
Living in denial.


A young happiness
Rare, but near
Feeling so blessed
With no kind of fear.

The nicest thing

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met



I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break

Yeah, I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake

I wish that without me you couldn't eat

I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen

And I wish that we could see if we could be something

Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

You're something worth to me.

You say you're nothing worth, but I know better.
You never believe in yourself and you bring yourself down.
You say nobody cares, but I know, that I do.
I'm trying to make you understand but its like you dont hear what im saying. 
Your trapped inside your own head, im trying to free you and show you the wonders.
But you close again, whenever i get too close to the truth.
Whenever i get too close to you. You're pushing me back, you dont want me too close to your life. I understand that. I dont blame you for anything, I know that its painfull, but you have to realise that life isn't always gonna go your way. You have to work hard to get what you want. Im trying to show you that life can be good. But you make me doubt, even I doubt sometimes. Please realise
Its like you dont wanna see, that your amazing.